Day 27: I'll Come Through

Some of you might still remember my old blog about finding an illustrator for my upcoming book. Although I'm not making any deal with anyone yet, well... I already have a right candidate :) I still got messages from illustrators, asking if there's still a chance.

Almost a week ago, somebody sent me an invitation on Facebook, with a short message attached asking if the quest of an illustrator still on. In my ideal yet ordinary and well-mannered world, I have to reply his message. So I did, nicely. But I didn't do anything with his invitation. I didn't confirm nor ignore him. I was contemplating. Why? Because I don't do random adding.

All of my friends on Facebook are my friends in the real world. I have only 3 friends labeled "online buddy" just because I have known them from Multiply first, and they are such good friends although we never see each other. So why was I contemplating on his invitation? I don't know. I think I just had a positive vibe from him by asking me nicely about a chance of being my illustrator.

So what did I do? I told him I already got an illustrator, in a nice way. This afternoon, I got his reply. From his sentences, I know he had no problem being 'rejected'. He's mad just because I didn't confirm him as friend on Facebook. That's just hilarious. Why he reacted like that?

Then, I replied. I said I'm using Facebook to reconnect with my family, friends, colleagues and not interested in making friend with a total stranger. He's mad and wrote a stupid sentence to me.

I guess I was wrong by saying "..not interested in making friend with a total stranger.." Fine. I did apologize to him. I didn't mean to be so mean. I just don't do random adding on Facebook.

Well.. he didn't get that. Shallow-minded yet cheesy and mean person like him could only reply me with painful words, judge me without ever knowing who I really am.

*sigh*

It hurt, quite bad. I lost my faith for a moment. "Am I that bad? Am I that talentless? Will I ever be successful in the future?"

:(

He challenges me with his nonsense words, so I got to stand up for myself. I pressed the 'ignore' button, 'block' him, and 'report abuse' him. Hahahahahaha... Thank God I'm here, in the happy office with happy-go-lucky co-workers, and Rossi behind the window. I'm trying to forget what has happened and forget his painful words.

Hmm.. I think I should give him a little credit by inspiring me for Day 26. Now I understand, there are lots of crazy, mean people, who loves to see me fall. Fine. That's absolutely fine. That's life.

John Mayer said (Vultures, from the album: Continuum),

"If this is what it takes to take me even higher, then I'll come through like I do when the world keeps testing me."

Hmm... It's my second time using his console lyrics... and it works.

I won't let anyone, especially the one like him, gets me down. I WILL NOT. Instead, I'll make him look better by letting him as an inspirator, not an illustrator! Hahahahahahahaha...

Thank you, stupid moron!



:)


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